tell people, talk to people

I don't mind people know I have the negative thoughts...

I also need people care me as I care others so much. 

However, I dont share my thoughts with everyone but only those I trust the most. 

They cant help me that much, but I know some of them try to check on me time to time. 

If you ask me, I kind of stop thinking to end my life, but still very depressed and stress inside. 

Dont know what will happen next, I guess one thing at a time. 

love the world, love our world....

Went to 1000 tree planting event, saw the new generation came out to help out. I was blessed. 

When I was alone, I looked at the sky and wish my daughter could be there with me. 

Medicine started working as I dont think that way at this moment. 

Recently, I saw my Facebook showing me a lot "love yourself as you are the treasure in your life", "dont give up until you try".... I guess God use the social media to let me know i am loved. 

Clouds looked so nice.

Not that I dont want to write on here everyday. I am just very busy this week. 

I looked at the sky this morning when I went to work. The clouds were pretty. 

Have been taking medicine for almost a week. I have been asking myself why I take medicine again.  The time I had the thoughts of suicidal... I mean numbers of time in 1 week, the last thing I could do was really getting professional help before I really end my life. 

At least I tried to save myself.  

I am not too sure if medicine kick in or not.  I didn't feel anything, so maybe it is good? 

Anyway, this is my own record only. 

Easter sunday 2025

Good to know someone is thinking of me. She has been my mentor for years. She may not think so, but she inspires me a lot. 

This time when depression hits me hard, she has been with me along the way... 

Even Easter, she would think of me. It is good to have the feeling I am not alone. 

Thank, you know who you are, AT. 

Good friday

It was good Friday. Went to church. Went for lunch. 

It was good to try new place. Viet food this time. Not bad. 

I was very tired.  Kept yawning while doing grocery shopping. 

Went home and had a quick an hour nap. Woke up and still tired.  

I was crying really hard at church. While pastor was offering oil prayer. I didn't go out but my hubby prayed for me. That healed me little bit. 

Hope things will get better with the help of medicine