1. I tried my best to cope with my treatment and my new job descriptions. Yes. New job descriptions. My job descriptions had been changed numbers of time in the past 11 months. It was challenge for me but I personally think I did fine. It was not easy for me from retention to recruitment. Need to learn the updated procedures and need to learn let go of my past 10+ years retention job. The volunteers were upset and thought I left them purposely. Of coz, I could not say much as it was higher level decision. I did my best to do outreach events. At least I did 4 meaningful outreach to different communities. I was blessed.
2. I tried to work life balance as it was not easy in my team. As usual, I went to fishing with my family and it was the time I could look up and pray more.
3. I tried to take things easy in the office even I was being target. I was just a grassroot staff and high mgt always watched me and made sure I was at my desk. No matter I was working or not. Got staffs to watch me while they passed by. Sound ridiculous? Yes. I was being watched for months. Whenever they walked by and didnt see me and would ask my manager where I was. I felt like prisoner. I tried to calm myself because it actually stressed me out a bit.
3. Finally, they could not let me stay. They laid me off. They terminated me. At first, I was angry, bcoz I had no idea why they could treat me this way as I had been working in this company for 10+ years. Still terminated me. Then a week later, I found myself peacefully live in my "no work" busy life. I finally could get out of this toxic environment. I should celebrate it.
I felt so sad to the one who terminated me. By saving her own job, she had to suck up and being a good sister to the top 1. So not herself. .... maybe afterall, that maybe really herself. I dont know. But I am happy that I have a chance to chill now.
Clouds was so closed to me, but light was right behind the dark.
I believe everyone do things and they must take their own consequence. I wish her luck.
