human touch

Have been thinking about lot of things lately. 

My family, my work, my friends, myself. 

It seems like things are falling apart altogether. 

My family, I have been isolated from my brother's family almost 2 years. Not easy for me as I love my brothers so much. It is so sad that much brother is isolating me from his family. I guess I am a very bad person.  

My work, keep changing and changing. Trying to tell myself no matter what will happen, you keep going and fight for it.  However, I have been shattered by all the unknown issues and those micromanagement gossip... it is not easy for me that I am still alive. 

My friends, after 10+ years, I have been pushing my friends away from me bcoz I dont want to social anymore. That scares me, I have been working on my social appearence for years and suddenly, I crash it... but I dont regret, bcoz I still have real friends around. Just not meeting them that much. 

Myself, have been mean to myself lately. Mentally, and physically. 

Human touch, this is something cant express fully by words but actually, you need to feel it. 

I believe God has HIS plan on me and he let me experience human touch again and again. 

Soft and firm touches are healing me. Hope things are getting brighter and clear.