Do not ask me why I start this blog, I guess I want to record my journey to fight my depression.
I started to have depression when I was little. in high school? or in U? I don't remember... I remember I took depression medicine for years, then stop... then on again... off again... before marriage.
Yes, I married in 2011. But I lost my daughter in 2012. this kicked me back to the dark hole again. From then until recently, I pretended I was ok. I mean, inside myself, I told myself. I SHOULD BE OK and I am ok... right?
Working in an expanding company but run by 80's style. It is very confusing. I am trying to survive in this company for years. However, I guess I am too outstanding (I would count myself always can draw the Mgt level attention, my personality, not my work, sad). By working in this company for so many years, I don't know how the real world is running now. I find myself losing the ability to compete outside and I should say I stay in my comfort zone for too long. Now, I am the target from the Mgt level, and it stresses me out all the time.
I am only a grassroot and it should not have attention from CEO and COO. However, they concern about me at all the time. this is a trigger my depression again. Their Micromanagement really kill my braincells.
so here I am, with my old friend (Depression medicine) again. This is my Day 1 with her again.
So far, I didn't have any side effect since this morning (yes. I choose to take it in the morning).
ok. Not much to say. Just a Day 1
Journey begins.....
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