TGIF!

 It is Friday. Day 2 to take medicine. Today I almost forgot to take it. Should find a way to make sure I don't forget. 

I have angels around me and they check on me everyday. I am blessed. 

Inside me still depressed. Tears never stop (on my face or inside me). I don't know how to stop it. My husband only said "look further, look wider". He doesn't know why I need to take it. He doesn't understand why I seeked medical help. He thinks I can heal it myself. However, if I can heal it, I should be healed 10 years ago. 

Even there is no evidence to mention my drug will hurt my liver, I will take extra care. I remind myself to take Milk Thistle everyday to make sure my liver is being protected. 

Today, weather is not that great. Grey and snowing. 

I have been thinking "What if" I don't need to work, what will I do? 

I will have a lot to do, but I will have no money to spend. I don't think my husband will give me money to spend as he said once he paid everything else (house expenses, mortgage, even my RRSP, etc etc)

I slept well last night. 1st time ever in the past weeks. Thanks God. 

again, this blog is only for myself to record I started the medicine. Nothing exciting to read thru. (maybe in the future, but not at this moment). 

PS: today I was late (because I forgot my medicine, so I returned to get my medicine). When I walked to office, I saw my mgl level. People congratulated highest got an award or something. It is funny how they always not announce anything that staffs should know. Anyway, I used to respect them a lot. at this moment, They don't deserve my respect anymore. The gap between them and me... just too wide......  People told me I have to seperate work and life. But I spend so much time at work. I always make it like my family... but again, my own family doesn't treat me family... why should others? Am I that bad?